Dug up a Story I wrote on betrayal:
Nothing At All to Me
I am not to be pushed or hushed.
It's monogamy or bust.
I'm not like anyone else who has fussed
Black and white. It's me or it's not.
Every minute I sit here thinking,
It's become clearer...
You never gave me a fighting chance in your thoughts
(heh, you just weren't into me)
The crazy part is you were in most of mine except
It's NOT crazy since it was in our vows
But you apparently preTended it all.
You know I think back:
You were the stars in the sky for me
The fresh air over spring waters for me
The laugh in my life of sorrow for me.
And now the business trips that pulled you away
The birthdays you missed
The calls never made
I see why I don't care for ya now.
The empty chair accross and next to me
Make it clear you are Nothing at all to me.
I do not know why you did what you did
Oh I could guess: a pair of flirty breasts and willing vagina.
I have all of this, but I guess she was closer?
I digress. The betrayal is real
The fate of this hate is born
and closure stamped closed with a red wax seal.
I feel better now that your presence is gone.
I am free to be loved like I know I deserve.
So go ahead and get it on with anyone you want
Because eventhough...
You were the stars in the sky for me
The fresh air over spring waters for me
The laugh in my life of sorrow for me.
And the less than likely excuses cuz you strayed
The birthdays you missed
The calls never made
You see why I don't care for ya now.
It's Still only me in this bed
You hurt me deep down
But still clear you are Nothing at all to me.
I have moved on in direction and drive
Going for my dreams now. Forget about love.
Got passion for what I do and that's More than enough
Loving the life I lead cuz I am completely complete
Without all the doubt and deceipt.
Just had to seed my passion and count
All the ways I love my life without you
Because since...
You were the stars in the sky for me
The fresh air over spring waters for me
The laugh in my life of sorrow for me.
I see I wasted so much time on you
And now that I'm here
I see the possibilities
And why I am glad you are gone
Cuz I see the beautiful view accross from me now
Making it clear you Really are nothing at all to me.
