So,yeah I could stand to learn a whole lot more.
Why do the happenings of the world seem to go on when you aren't there? People grow up and live their lives too. I liked it so much more when I thought I was the only one doing anything worth while (because after all that is all I saw.) I will quickly throw my nose in the air.
What's this? I compare myself to others!?! Gasp!!! How am I going to better myself if I constantly compare myself to others.
The shut-in thing was working for me, damnit!!! What now?????
Nothing I do feels special or worth doing because it's been done AND done. My life is supposed to have meaning for me too. Now what???? The constant reminder puts me in a state of "I don't wanna be near you anyhow!" And how dare you breathe or laugh or grow without me around?
Yeah, I get it...Life isn't a photo. Life goes on. And why am I not ok with that? Cuz it hurts when you want to see those you don't. WOW it hurts!!! OIY!!!
As the 5 year old in me says, "I am the boss of me!"
Kick in NOW! I need to not care and just live my life. I NEED to love me and the life I lead. It is the only one I have.
